The school of life is something that you signed up for when projecting yourself into this organic realm. You must understand that you are the student and also the teacher.
You make rules for yourself and then you break them. This is part of the game that you are playing as a bright spark of consciousness.
You know deep inside that you are of the light. It is because of this that you were willing and eager to play the game of creation. You have merely forgotten that you designed the game board.